As I sit, metaphorical pen to parchment, my fingers tremble. I struggle to share my story. I have had deep hurt, and to tell it, it has to be the whole, not the part… I grew up in a comfortable middle class family. My grandparents lived next door. We celebrated birthdays & holidays with an airContinue reading "The Hard, Narrow, Rocky Road Where Jesus Carried Me…"

 “Shall we receive good from God and not receive sorrow as well?” – Job 2:10“It’s ridiculous how much joy a moment can hold.” – Ann Voskamp I think back on a defined moment in this journey when my heart felt glad and there were no trappings of the sorrow that bleed in a life that hasContinue reading "The Ridiculous JOY of Deep Sorrow!"

The soft stirring flutters deep within the corner of my parched soul - a waking feeling as if I have been in a deep sleep for some 30 years. The morning sunlight drips through stoic trees as the gentle wind tickles their tender leaves. The sound rushes quickly & quietly into my ears, filling my bodyContinue reading "It’s a Real Fairytale sort of thing…"

Lord of Grace & Mercy:Thank you that repentance means “I am found”! You find me like a coin swept under the couch – dusting, polishing, & refining me until I am made new. You are the gifted artist orchestrating a masterpiece with precise hands. You understand & know the finished product you are making. YourContinue reading "The Repentance of Being Found!"

  I am road weary. I fear this is going to be the norm for a while – possibly forever. I must have lived 1,000 years in a five mile radius. It seems I have lived void of experience and adventure, yet I am painfully old. There is also a fog on my heart, possibly myContinue reading "IDOL LIES!!!"

“My ego is like a fortress. I have built its walls stone by stone to hold out the invasion of the love of God. But I have stayed here long enough. There is light over the barriers. O my God… I let go of the past, I withdraw my grasping hand from the future andContinue reading "Poor, Pitiful, Perfection"

There is an aching mystery that comes with the complete surrender of ones will to God. I don’t think it comes easily or quickly. I am quite certain it never comes all at once or completely. We are innately selfish people. We hold things that we deem dear, white knuckled, afraid of losing our graspContinue reading "Fixing My "want to"!"

When I write, it is often out of desperation, to right the spinning in my head, settle my thoughts, & bring them around to God. I so often want to be an encourager, but when I put pen to parchment it is usually out of a deep need to spill out my shortcomings. There areContinue reading "Losing My First Love & Other Black Hearted Discussions!"

He is so wonderfully mindful of us. He is so wonderfully caring towards us. This world claws for our attention with such rapt force we are often left blurry eyed, head spinning. It is a frightful & almost chilled feeling that washes over me when I think how easily I am swayed by what IContinue reading "I Am Finally Free"

I have adapted these from a Whole Wheat Biscuit recipe, in fact, I have made cheddar, pumpkin, & sweet potato biscuits from this one recipe, so very adaptable...You can use butter & milk of your choice, including buttermilk!1 cup whole wheat flour1 cup all purpose flour1 tablespoon sugar1 1/2 tablespoons cocoa powder1/2 teaspoon baking soda1/4Continue reading "Chocolate Whole Wheat Drop Biscuits"